Dear God pt. II

I am all smiles , why? You came to my aid when I cried out to you, you did not forsake me when I needed you most. And it isn’t like that is a surprise, because that is what you are known for; provided it is in your will You always answer my prayers.

I knew you had reassured me when I attend the Believers’ World midweek service in school. The spoke to me through the preacher that day; you said I remember who I am in You, that I am Your child, that I should declare this everyday, that I should live it, that I should be Christ-conscious, that I should be life-conscious, that I should fellowship with the Holy Spirit and that You are with me.

As I prayed, as I spoke in tongues, You put my spirit at ease and you reassured me in my spirit that You had answered me. I believed and said thank you. When I got back to my room, I was all smiles, I was at peace with myself, never to cry again, never to worry again, never to doubt again.

I learnt that day that challenges do not come the way of a child of God to destroy them, but to take them to the next level.

I thank You for that sermon that evening, and I thank You for the life of Andrea who made me come to that service. Indeed I came with a heavy heart that day but left with a clear mind and a renewed mind.

Thank you Lord, again.

Sincerely,

Martha.

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Dear God,

Life these past few weeks have been tough for me, I get scared quickly and it seems I tend to almost give up when I think there is no way out.

When I have a test or an exam or even when a new topic is taught in class, I become afraid and it keeps going through my mind that I will not pass the exam or I will never understand this new topic. Nowadays I tend to cry at every little thing.

I was not like this before, I don’t like what I think I am becoming now: a quitter.

Before I always had faith in You that no matter the situation, I will turn out ok. Now even when I pray to You and proclaim that everything will be fine with me, my heart still aches out of fear that it will never be ok.

What is the reason behind this? Am I becoming a weak Christian? Is my spirit beginning to have less will-power? Or is my body beginning to take over me?

Even as I write this letter, I have a big lump in my throat because I am on the verge of tears. I am a strong person on the outside but on the inside; I see myself as a very fearful person now.

I can’t take it anymore Lord, rebuke me, smack me back to normal if You have to but please help me get away from this shell of outrageous fear. I believe in You Lord, but I don’t believe I am showing it. Come to my aid Father, take me out of this grey world I’m in and lead me into Your light. I have a lot of desires on my heart, answer them as you see fit Lord; You alone know the ones I need the most.

I trust You Lord, I love You and I know You love me more. I am not worthy yet you still care for me and are always faithful. I love You from the bottom of my heart, this letter comes from the same place too.

Sincerely,

Martha.

My new favourite sensation – Adele

Title: Set Fire To The Rain

Lyrics:
let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell, you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they’re strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there’s a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you’d say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
‘Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you’re here forever
You and me together
Nothing gets better

‘Cause there’s a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you’d say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
‘Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
‘Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught, must be waiting for you
Even now when we’re already over
I can’t help myself from looking for you.

[Chorus:]
I set fire to the rain,
Watch it pour as I touch your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
‘Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
‘Cause I knew that that was the last time
The last time, oh, oh!

Let it burn
Let it burn
Let it burn

All The Right Moves – OneRepublic

I think I am now addicted to OneRepublic. They are my new favorites.

Bamidele from Asa’s new album Beautiful Imperfection

Akinyele is a lawyer whose had an affair with a young girl
the girl is now pregnant and Akinyele wants to ran away from
his responsibilities. Now the girl who is pregnant for Akinyele
says he must go with her to her father’s house so that
they can begin the marriage plans.

That’s about all the song is saying…
Enjoy 🙂

Friends

Friends are great, to have people around who love you, people who you can tell all the crap in the world to…lol, yeah all the crap in the world. People who you can share your joy and sorrow with. People who you can cry your heart out to, people you can show your ugliest secrets to, people apart from your family, age and gender regardless.

I am blessed to have friends like that around me, u know, one confides in me more than the other, the other i confide in and vice versa. i am happy to be a confidante for all my friends cos they are there for me as well. What would i do without them.

I have come to realize classes of friends in my experience with people.I believe friendship should not be selfish, you know there are some people who will not want you to be friends with anyone else, i call them “jealous pests“. Those kind are unbearable, they usually are very dictating and want to order you life.

There is this other class of friends which i call “push me no go“. These, man, are parasites, they cling unto you like a worm on fish hook and want to know your every move. They do not care if you want out of the friendship, as far as they are concerned you are friends for life.

Then there are what I call “self arrangements“. These ones actually do the befriending, it doesnt really matter if u dont want to be their friend, your opinion doesnt really matter, so far as they have chosen you it’s ok.

The “browners” is what i call the friends who disappoint as a specialty. They are always apologizing for one thing or the other. You both set a date to meet and hang out and the next minute they call and tell you they cant make it. The most annoying part is when you are supposed to meet up with them, you give them a call that you are on your way and they go like “oh!…uh… we were supposed to meet today huh?” (imagine that!)

There are friends who are also there just to make you feel guilty about E-V-E-R-Y–S-I-N-G-L-E–T-H-I-N-G you do or say to them. You make a joke and they are offended, you don’t call- they are offended, you sleep without saying gudnyte- they are offended, you look at their face without smiling- they are offended. You get a call from your Dad and you dont let them say hello-they are offended, saying hi to someone else first in their presence before speaking to them-they are offended. Ebei! asem i call them “Every-little-thing-that-u-do“

There are the cry babies, those friends who do their best to turn you into a waste management company. They make an effort to heap all their problems on you, every little problem they get(as little as a broken fingernail), they come running to you crying like the world is coming to an end. I call them “victim wannabes” (absolutely)

And finally, what i call my ideal friend. These friends are not jus cuul, they are the craziest beings ever to be created on planet earth. these friends know when to make you cry your eyes out; out of laughter, they know when to be serious when you are serious, they know the freshest movies, are technology fanatics, game fanatics, movie fanatics, music fanatics, Jesus freaks…(i cud go on and on), it’s like they were created with the same timetable you have in your head( cuul huh?). they always have time for you no matter how busy they are. And most importantly you know they will be there forever.

Poured my heart(and brains) out
peace out 😉

Too gud to be true…

The food alone is incentive enough lol 😀

Google Sweet Google

Man! i really look forward to working in one of Google’s branches, their offices are so freaking cool. Can’t wait. Definitely the coolest place to work. 😉

Some real inspiring song coming from two youngsters…

This song really was an inspiration to me. Some of us may think that these young men do not have any worries and must be flowing in money and fame. But many seem to crumble when difficult situations come their way, worst of all they refuse to come back up when they fall.

The Bible even says that the righteous shall fall seven times and rise up again, but some Christians even refuse to take this verse into consideration when they are burdened.

I believe as humans, trouble will ALWAYS come our way and if we do not always try to take steps, be strategic and fight our way through, life will turn into a ginormous tornado and swallow us up. Then we will be left dizzy, forever swirling in it.

So whenever u are knocked down, do not stay on the ground. Pick yourself up and NEVER SAY NEVER.

Life with and without internet at home.

I remember I would not give my Dad peace of mind all because I wanted internet at home.  I had just started the university and with the truck load of assignment given me everyday, I needed the internet badly. Before i finally had internet at home I always had to go to the internet cafe and spend long hours, paying more money for the time i spent.  It was stressful and expensive; sometimes I had to leave my work undone because the cafe was closing for the day and aside that my allowance suffered. Even at school where there is wireless internet and a computer lab was not favourable because i usually left with the school bus. Staying late after school was not convenient for me either. I had no laptop either, just an internet-less desktop computer sitting at home, but that is another story. I was determined to get internet at home at all cost after school went on holidays.

I finally have internet at home, even though I have not started school yet I use the internet almost everyday. I watch movies, download software and check my emails, even play games. I feel content and at peace with myself now that I have internet access but with the rate at which I use it I sometimes wonder if the bills it accumulates are not the same as going to cafe.  True my work will be made much easier and less stressful and i will learn loads of new things that can help me in my course. Right now I can say I am a part of the class of techie individuals since I have internet to start with. I guess I should consider the good internet will do for me and try to consume it for the money’s worth.

Well, that’s life.